It’s been a rough 10 days in my world. Since last Monday I have been tested, and challenged, and have felt at times like I was just suffering through life, to put it bluntly. But I’m here. And I survived it. And it sucks and it was brutal, but it happened and one day I’ll understand why. And you know what has pulled me through? My friends. And my family. And my work family. My husband. My son. The very beats of my strong yet temporarily shattered heart. I like to think I’m humble and that I live with my eyes open and fixed on what’s to come. I don’t dwell and I certainly don’t look behind me in order to live for what I want to manifest for myself and for my future. Just when you think you have life all figured out and planned, God and the universe and the powers that be have a way of letting you know you have absolutely zero access to the map that is your life.  When you are under the impression that specific people are supposed to be the ones who love and support you but then they fall short, it breaks you. It truly does. But it’s within those fault lines where the love shines through. And it’s then that the light at the end of the tunnel presents itself ever so gently to give you hope.

But back to my friends. And my family. And the friends that turned into my family. I wrote this years ago, and it always finds its way back to me just when I need it the most: 

have you ever sat with someone and noticed how beautiful they really are? and thought about the circumstances that have brought you to sit in front of their face? to be lucky enough to see their heart and soul come shining out? to be able to witness how much they’re really worth? there are no coincidences in this life. every avenue we travel down is for a purpose. every person we meet is a blessing, in one form or the next. savor these moments and hold onto these people. they are all a part of God’s great plan.

So I just want to say, thank you. To the people who get me. And love me. And make me exactly who I am. I am in awe that God has placed so many beautiful souls in my little world. With fresh eyes and new ideas, I’m on my way again.